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My conclusion for M'era Luna 2019? - Water melon :)
It was my last festival for this year, since I am now pregnant in week 36 (so 4-7 weeks to go, depending whether the baby comes on time or later). I still really wanted to go to the festival, since after having a baby I won´t be able to go out for any party/concert/festival for at least 3-4 month and also afterwards it will be very limited to local parties at first.
My M'era Luna started on Saturday mid-day. Since I live close to Hildesheim I could get ready at home and then take the train/bus to the festival ground. I am still waiting for the year, on which I will finally make it to the camping ground at M'era Luna, so far every year something came in between (maybe that´s also due to the fact, that I live so close and never find the motivation to take the hustle to build my tent there).
The first thing I noticed this year was that they had a shuttle bus directly to the festival area, however I am not sure whether I might have missed it last year. But: the bus was driving far to few times especially at the arrival times on Saturday. And paying for it took a long time, because everyone in the line need a ticket. I think they should just make the shuttle bus part of the festival price (1-2 euros per ticket more, don´t make a big difference anyways).
This year my main focus where not the bands, but meeting people and friends and getting into the general festival atmosphere. The weather was perfect, not to hot, not to cold, no rain. Only a bit windy.
What I like about M'era Luna is that is seems to be a very relaxed festival. Everything is close together, and due to the location (on a field/old airport), people are sitting everywhere around, enjoying the music and chilling in the sun.
The festival is also very nicely decorated. The only thing I missed this year where the stilt walkers/acrobats. They were there every year since I was at M'era Luna, however somehow this year not. I hope they bring them back.
M'era Luna as has a very nice shopping area, that contains also a lot of shops that sell unique handcrafted things and not only the cheap resellers, that buy stuff online and sell it for twice the price at the festival.
One thing I want to try out next year is the Academy (a place at M'era Luna where you can take different workshops). Not necessary because of the workshops itself, but because I am interested to see how this goes.
I did watch some parts of the Gothic fashion which I very much enjoyed.
After a full festival day it was very hard for me to motivate myself to get ready again on Sunday morning. Not because I didn`t want to go to the festival, but because in every movement I make the belly is now in the way. However I found the motivation and I was very happy about it in the end. I meet more people and friends that I missed out on the day beforehand.
I can not say a lot about the bands this year. The line-up would have been every good in my point of view, if I had been able to watch the bands. However I needed to stay away from the stages because they where way to crowed and too loud for the baby in the belly. But next year I will be able to go to the front row again. :)
In general this M'era Luna festival was very "full". The festival got more and more popular over the last years and this year it was sold out. I can only repeat what people who camped told me, but the camping ground seem to be too full and the arrival pretty stressful. Maybe they can open more space next year.
However what was very nice (and unfortunately not very common at festivals) - there were enough toilets (import for a pregnant woman^^) and water stations available so that you didn´t have to wait in a long queue.
So I very much enjoyed M'era Luna festival this year again. My festival experience was properly a lot, lot different from most people, because of my "late-stage" pregnancy. But I am so glad that I was still so fit that I could last a full festival day. And next year I will be able to fully enjoy the concerts again, something I am really looking forward too.
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Amphi Festival 2019 was super fun again. Also it was again a bit different for me, since I am (still) pregnant - now in week 33.
This means I have to stick to outside locations, where it´s not so noisy and not too crowed. However I am just so happy, that I am still able to go to festivals and there were a couple of really good bands playing outside on the main stage.
My friends and me arrived in Cologne on Friday evening. Usually that´s the evening of the pre-party. Well, I had to miss out on that - since it is inside. We went to pick up our festival wrist bands and found a every nice restaurant in Cologne to eat dinner.
Saturday started pretty early. A friend of mine spontaneously organized a little "cyber-meeting" - to be honest, I would rather have it called "industrial dance meeting" since it is more inclusive. Not all industrial dancers and ex-das-klubbers are Cybergoth. The meeting was set to be at 11 am - I made it there at 11:30. Getting ready in the morning just takes 3 hours, especially if you have a big belly in front of you that makes moving around a bit harder. I had a very nice photo-shoot with Ulrich Waschul afterwards - I take pictures with him every year. In general festivals are starting for me to become more like family-and-friends meetings. I didn´t even check the Amphi Lineup beforehand. I just knew I had to be there to meet "my people". And a couple of good bands are always playing.
I saw a bit of Chrom, Hocico and Lord of the Lost that day. My highlight was definitely Hocico. Unfortunately I was so done, that I had to leave Lord of the Lost early. Just before a big rain shower started. I missed Blutengel which I would have loved to see, but baby comes first this year. :) The rest of the evening was pretty uneventful for me - having a nice dinner, enjoying the bathtub in my hotel room and then crushing into my bed. I really hope everyone else went on to party! :D Besides this rain shower the weather for Amphi Festival was actually perfect this year. Not to warm, not to cold, not to rainy, not to sunny. Perfect for running around the entire day and dance. :)
Sunday started later - which was nice. Some people really wanted to do an industrial dance video at the Amphi again. My friend Lunara organized a meeting point very spontaneous - and I stumbled into the responsibility of filming and editing it....so a week after my Amphi impressions video, there should be also an industrial dance video from Amphi 2019 online. However I really want to do it properly organized next year again. But a couple of friends (Anoxia, Frettchen, Lunara, me)...already decided, that next year that will happen. :)
This day I saw Faderhead and a bit of Welle:Erdball. Faderhead was definitely my festival highlight. The gig was super fun and the people were having a great party. I missed out on Nachtmahr that day - because they played inside.
The rest of my day was again pretty uneventful but nevertheless super nice. I spend most of the time talking to friends, that I haven`t met in a long time. And when everyone left for Nachtmahr, I left again for the hotel - straight into the bathtub.
So that was my Amphi Festival. I was forced to miss out on a lot of things, nevertheless I am super happy that even in 9th month I am still fit enough to travel and attend festivals. And it´s only 9 month, so next year it will be a lot different again - I will be able to go to inside locations, dance a lot, drink a bit. But most importantly I will meet my friends at Amphi 2020 also again. :)
This year's WGT was my second with a pregnancy belly. My older daughter is now 3 years old now and with her in the belly I was also at the Wave-Gotik-Treffen. So in a way, I already knew what to expect and what I can do and what I can't do with a belly inhabitant. First things first: the WGT was super amazing and I was happy that I was still able to go. It was a lot "slower" then usual and with only 3-4 concerts, but at least I was there. Biggest set-back for me however as the Pagan Village (Heidnisches Dorf). I will come to that later.
I arrived in Leipzig as usual on Thursday evening. However to a much later time then usual - because I had to give my master thesis defense right before hopping into the train. I got picked up by my friend, festival and stage partner in crime Lady Flauschig. Originally the plan was to camp together on the camping ground, however due to my belly that was postponed for a later WGT. After getting my stuff into the flat, we went to the Agra area that evening to pick up my festival ribbon and meet up with a couple of friends. The pre-party was to loud for the baby so we went to bed pretty early.
On Friday we got ready for the Victorian Picnic. I always love coming back, because people seem to be so relaxed and you get to see some of the most amazing outfits of the entire WGT. The little café that in the middle of the park also upgrade it´s amount of toilets, so the queue was a lot shorter this year. (Unfortunatelly the queue for the ice cream was much longer, so I didn´t get one).
After the picnic we went to the Haus Leipzig for the Synthattack gig. Usually I am on stage with Lady Flauschig together, however this time I found a very good replacement for myself. Snowy Firefly will be dancing instead of myself as long as I have my pregnancy belly. But I was allowed to stay on the gallery to see the gig. Otherwise it would have been to crowed for me and the belly, but in this way I got to enjoy the concert. (Thank you very much to the event manager for letting me sit there).
For me that was already my Friday. After the concert I was starving and after having food I was so done that I went to bed. But I send out Lady Flauschig to dance and party for me.
Our Saturday started super early. Because friends of us have a new band called TOAL and we wanted to support them as they played as opener in the Nontox. They are all experienced musicians that play in multiple bands, but as TOAL it was only their second gig. The gig was really nice and I am sure for the next gigs we get to sleep longer, as they make their way up the line-up. :D
After TOAL we went back to the flat to finish our hair and makeup. Afterwards we did a short trip to the Agra area, however only shortly afterwards I meet a lot of friends that wanted to go back to the Nontox for Epinephrine, Noisuf-X and Centron. We took the cap to the location, because the Nontox the the worst location to reach out of all locations of the WGT I have been so far. Additionally they also had a replacement bus service they year, which took extra long. The concert of Ephinephrine was really nice and I was able to dance a bit. Much to my disappointment they enhanced the bass by a lot when Noisuf-X started, so that I had to go, because it was again to loud for my baby. So that was my Saturday, it was super fun nevertheless.
Our Sunday started super late and it took us ages to get ready. Because Lady Flauschig and me were already pretty done from the festival. When we finally got ready and reached the festival area, we run into to friend photographers, who`s model had just cancelled them. So we spontaneously went to a photo shoot with them. Lady Flauschig went afterwards to see Soman in the Täubchental. And I wanted to go inside the Heidnisches Villages. Well - my part didn`t go as planed.
The Pagan Village (Heidnisches Dorf) was a huge disappointment this year - because they are only interested into profit and not that people actually enjoy it. The Pagan Village is independent of the WGT - however they work together since years. The pagan village is one of the few places were you can go with a day ticket without buying the entire festival ribbon. However - they are selling day tickets without limits. So that people who paid the entire festival price can not get inside anymore. The queue for the village was at 3 days up until the train station. So about 500m! If you didn´t get inside the pagan village by mid-day you could not get inside at all and once you were inside you couldn´t go outside again, because...you wouldn´t get back inside. In the village itself it was so crowed that it was also not much fun. For me the pagan village was always essential for the WGT. When you didn´t have anything else to do you would go inside, have a honey wine, some sweets and chill out on the meadow. However this was not possible this year. It was especially disappointing, since I was pregnant and couldn´t see most concerts. So the pagan village was actually one of the things I really wanted to do. Just sit in the meadow and listen to some nice music from afar. To be honest, I am not sure, whether I will pay the festival ribbon again, if they don´t find a solution for this. The ticket got more and more expensive over the last year`s and they cut more and more things that are included. If the pagan village is now also not available anymore then I don´t see a point in spending so much money.
On Monday we got up early again - because at least once I wanted to go inside the pagan village. However there was on music playing and the moment and my friend didn´t want to be there, because she ''forgot'' to eat again in the morning, so we went outside again soon. On that day, I pretty much only did some walking through the Agra area and enjoying some food and good conversations there and on the camping ground. And then it was already time to get back to the train station and leave Leipzig again.
So was WGT fun? Yes! I am happy that I went and didn´t let my pregnancy prevent me from having fun. However I was very much disappointed with the Pagan Village disaster. Will I go next year again? Properly, but only if they find a better solution for the pagan village. If they don´t find a solution I will simply do the without-a-ticket WGT. So Friday Victorian Picnic, Saturday a day-ticket for the Pagan Village. In the evening Nontox (you can get day tickets for that as well). Because if I go next year, it will be with my entire family, 5 days are too long to be without my then born baby. And as the family we will have the same problem - most concerts are to noisy, the Agar area is not so nice to sit and play at. So it really depends upon if and how they manage to solve the Heidnisches Dorf situation. Otherwise the tickets are simply to over-priced for the service I get.
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This year was my third M'era Luna festival. And at some point I should really camp at this festival, because I think it makes festival experience a different and properly also even more fun. But since I live only 25 minutes by train way from Hildesheim every year I come up with another excuse to not sleep in a tent there. This year I am just a little overworked and didn´t want to bother with preparing for camping. Last year it was too muddy.... :D
M'era Luna 2018 was the first festival in a long time where I didn´t have a gig or any obligations, that's why I didn´t plan anything. I just wanted to go there, meet up with friends, see some bands, dance and enjoy myself. I didn´t even bother looking which bands where playing when I bought the ticket. So on Saturday I took my time to drink coffee and get ready at home, before arriving around 14 pm at the festival area.
The only band I was truly interested into that day was Nachtmahr and the Prodigy. Unfortunately I had to catch my last train, so I missed out on the Prodigy. But as I said, seeing bands wasn´t the main reason I went to the festival. I went more for the festival vibe and for my friends and fans.
I really love how M'era Luna always feels like a mixture of a goth and a metal festival. You have all the dressed up people, but also a lot of people in plain t-shirt sitting around in the grass enjoying the bands and a cold beer. Also the huge medieval market is really nice. If you want to you can also do a lot of "goth shopping" there. :D
On Sunday there where a lot more bands that I wanted to see and dance too. So I saw Frozen Plasma, Aesthetic Perfection and Roter Sand. If I didn´t have to take the train I properly would have watched Eisbrecher and Hocico as well.
But I was able to dance that day and had really nice conversations with old and new friends.
M'era Luna festival was nice. I feel like I am a bit festival tired at the moment, with Amphi Festival only being 2 weeks away. But I will camp next year at the M'era Luna festival. I think it will be a lot more fun this way.
Like Amphi Festival it´s nice that at the M'era Luna everything is really close by and you don´t have to travel thru the entire city like at the WGT. And unlike Amphi Festival you can camp at the M'era Luna, which gives you a lot more of the festival experience (if you do so^^).
One thing that does start to bother me are the safety rules that are increasing every year and seem to get more and more ridiculous. Checking into the concert area start´s to feel like going thru a airport security check in. So If you go to M'era Luna 2019 pack a see-thru backpack that isn´t bigger then A4 so that you can take at least a few thing to the in-field like a jacket, sun screen, a fan....
What I love about M'era Luna is that say always seem to put a lot of effort into making the festival area fun to look it. They put a lot of afford into the decorations of the festival. And every year they come up with something new. So M'era Luna 2019: be ready for me and my tent. :D
WOW. I am so done. Tired. Exhausted. But it was such an amazing festival. The festival blues is gonna hit me so hard tomorrow
when I slept enough. (And I really should go to bed now). :)
The Amphi Festivals 2018 was simply amazing. I shared my hotel room with a new friend of mine – Lady Flauschig - who is also an industrial dancer – and is doing now a lot of gigs together with me. We both arrived on Friday pretty late – and pretty exhausted because it was soo hot outside. But after some rest and a couple of strawberry beer we were ready to go to the pre-party. Which was really nice and I met a lot of my friends and fellow dancers there. And I got a huge surprise present from my fans/friends from Italy...:D
We partied until 1 am and had to go then because we had to get up the next morning already at 8:00 am. First thing on Saturday after getting into our outfits was a little photo shooting with a friend and it is really nice to have some good pictures from the outfits before then sun and the heat destroyed us. This Amphi festival was super, super hot and a fan and a water bottle were the most necessary things to keep with you.
After the photo shot I went to host the Amphi Industrial Dance Meeting together with JavaxChaos and I feel like every year we are more and more people there. It was nice to have all friends and industrial dancers at one spot at least once at the festival. Glutton Trex did the Amphi industrial dance video this year – which I hope will turn out really well since he put a lot of work into filming it. Unfortunately I only had time for a short scene in it.
After the Meeting we went to see our first band – XRX. So a really good start into the festival.
The we went to see the last parts of Kiew and then Centron in the theater stage. The last band I saw that day was Aesthetic Perfection. And then we really need to go to the hotel and rest a bit and have a shower. It was just so hot that day. When I felt better again I went to go out dancing at the after-show party.
Sunday was our big day – our gig with Synthattack together. A dream coming true. Dancing on stage at the Amphi Festival. And the gig was simply amazing. The theater stage was full, the people had a lot of fun, where dancing and clapping and having a good time. And that as an opener at the festival. After packing everything we rested a bit in the backstage and talked about the gig and socialist a bit with other bands. Lady Flauschig and me went to see Grendel next – and thanks to the really nice stage manager we were able to see it from the front row.
The last band I really saw and danced too that day was Agonoize. Unfortunately they weren´t allowed to do their fake blood show, but it was really amazing anyways. During the entire day I saw and met a lot of people, fans and friends so my social battery was really low. So enjoying a good cold honey wine with a group of friends was really relaxing. And we laughed so hard the entire evening. Especially because some of us practically never drink and started to be tipsy really fast. The rest of the evening we spend sitting there and having a good time. My little festival highlight was that I was able to say hi to Freya (It´s Black Friday) again. I didn´t know she would be at the festival this year.
And After the After-Show party I was done. Not able to move. Happy. Tired. Exhausted. Happy.
Nothing felt better the some food and the hotel bed.
This years Amphi Festival gets a 10/10 from me :)
What a festival! WGT 2018 is over and I am having a festival blues. This year the festival was simply amazing. At least for me – a lot of other people they would have found my time schedule too stressful, but I enjoyed every minute of it.
I arrived in Leipzig on Thursday evening. In general Thursday was a bit stressful – first getting my luggage to the train station (1 suitcase, a bag, a handbag and a backpack). Then the trip with the train – taking all my stuff to a hotel close to Leipzig Main Station to get their my artist wrist band – taking my stuff back to the train station, picking up 2 extra big suit cases that I shipped via post – then taking all my stuff to a taxi and finally arriving at the Agra camping ground. Fortunately my friends helped me setting up my tent and then we went to party together in the evening in the Agra 2.0. I danced a lot, met my friends from Synthattack there and was able to talk to Freya (it´s Black Friday) shortly.
On Friday with time schedule was really full. @11 am I had to be in the Sixtina for my gig with System Noire @ 12am. The Sixtina was really full and I loved my outfit. The Sixtina is a really beautiful location but unfortunately a bit small and you don´t have a big spot in front of the stage for people to stand there and watch the show.
After the concert I went back to the Agra and met there Allison (The Goblin Queen), her husband Braidskiis and more friends. That woman is so nice and so funny. I really wished she didn´t live so so far away (USA)^^
Then I grabbed my stuff for my next gig, met with my friend Lady Flauschig to go together to Haus Leipzig. We went around backstage, got ready and annoyed the security, because we accidentally always wanted to enter the male bathroom. (I really don´t know why, that door just felt a lot more intuitive).
Our gig together was Extize was absolutely amazing and definitely my WGT highlight. I don´t know how many, but maybe 1000 people e were watching us dance on Stage :) And it was such a fun gig as well. The guys from Extize are really fun to be around. I later on watched a bit of Centhron and I did see a bit of Phosgore beforehand as well.
Saturday in had most of the day off and was able to wear one of my demon outfits. I went around the Agra area and the Heidnisches Village. It really feels like the medieval market is growing every year a bit more. One of my friends has a little shop there called Crea Cora. So I visited her there.
In the evening me and Lady Flauschig were on stage again, together with the dance group vixxxen who already joined us in the Extize gig on Friday. We danced from 23pm until 2am in the Agra 2.0 disco on Stage. Afterwards we were really done and I missed out on the fetish party again. So that´s still on my WGT bucket list – hopefully I make in next year.
On Sunday was our gig with Synthattack in the Nontox. Since the Nontox is a long drive with the tram away from the Agra area, that´s where I went straight too after getting ready in the morning. Our gig was @16 pm. Unfortunately there went a couple of things wrong. The Nontox wasn´t able to play the videos Synthattack prepared and they also didn’t warn us about their “time-limited” so they just cutted the last song from the set – in which me and Lady Flauschig were supposed to dance again. So we got ready for 4 hours just to dance for 1 song on stage which was pretty disappointing. But this was our practice for the Amphi festival and in German we have the saying that if the last practice goes really wrong, the gig will be amazing. So I am really looking forward to our concert with Synthattack @the Amphi Festival 2019.
And then it was ready Monday. This was my day off – so I got into my second really cool but unpractical outfit and went around the Agra area, the Heidnisches village and too the Südfriendhof (a super nice graveyard). For the evening I changed into something more dance-able.
They invited me to come to the Moritz Bastei with them, but at that point I was already so done that I decided to go to bed – my daughter needs me today so I couldn´t be to done.
This was my WGT for this year. We were lucky that the weather wasn´t as cold as the weather report told us, even so the night in the tent were still really freezing. I met a lot of old and new friends, danced and had gig, enjoy really nice food and partied a lot. And I have a really bad festival blues already. See you next year at WGT 2019!!!